sometimes, i have something to say, but i'm afraid of saying and I dont feel like saying.
Perhaps, these words and words have accumulated in my heart, to the extent that i can hardly breathe.
I'm lost, i lost all control of my emotions.
i let them lead me, hopefully to where i belong.
it is hard to survive.
What makes it worse is putting up that strong front in front of my friends.
There are definitely friends to laugh with, but there is none to share my sorrowness and my emptiness.
Because, i have not learned to open up.

i guessed, i won't in near future.
for this year, i sincerely hope that i have the strength to last me through the 6 months, the last tier. i wonder how is everyone doing. are they like me? obviously not.

One day, i will make my way up there and look down at those who thought that i cannot make it.
i promise i will.
watch me grow.
watch me get there.
watch me soar.