yea, thought of you all. but i still have to consider the conditions right.
example: sms bao la, sms ppl very busy lah.
seriously, do u even have the time to hear me out?
and i am just as afraid that i would disturb you.
yes, may not need to say it out loud.
actions speak louder than words.
wads the use of saying frens forever every second/ i love you?
is not the words i want but the kind of care and love.
i just cant feel it from you. like something is missing.
a space i think despite we are laughing our heads off.

i guess u would nvr know the pain in me,
and i knw u all have the pain too. sorry.
but u all everyone arnd. but i am just away.
away from the crowd and away from my life.

nevertheless, i am trying to get along with new ppl
but 2 years of frenship is hard to forget.
new frens, lacking of the telepathy and easiness.
just cant be my true self in frnt of them.

i appreciated the times u all encouraged me to not feel extra
i really tried my best, really.
but now i seem like to be casted aside by u all,
standing in the crowd yet seeing everyone's back.
for now, i really feel that having no common topic
is not an important factor for the difficult communication btwn us.

i knw devilrinas is my support.

please dun let go of the rope, i still need all of youu
if i ever ignored u i am sorry.
if i ever hurt u i am sorry,
i hope i nt that kind of person. &
one impt clarification, the i-ppl are nt proud at all!