this is the picture you all wanted right. hehe

anyway after many thoughts,
i think that i shld not just jump into conclusions.
made a trip round the blogs, and found out that
ppl emo partially of me.
so, thats why i decided to give myself a chance once again !
isnt that good news?
i know wad u all wan me to say lah.
to evan: if i am free on 080808, i will go
& frens forever ok ? haha
hoping no disappointments.

and to her: sorry for being rash that day.
i dint meant to lecture you or wad.
you have the power to choose
to choose who can cheer you up.
if you think staying in dance cant lighten ur mood.
we also hope that you could go to a place whr
you would feel better.
and nvr doubt for being a vice-chair..

so many things happen.
and all seem to be my fault ):
okay so i dun zhi mi bu wu.
i am just purely reciting my thoughts.
so dun think too much bah.
problem shld nt be so big.
so.. ya. just in time to revive..

yaya so LOVES (:

yea, thought of you all. but i still have to consider the conditions right.
example: sms bao la, sms ppl very busy lah.
seriously, do u even have the time to hear me out?
and i am just as afraid that i would disturb you.
yes, may not need to say it out loud.
actions speak louder than words.
wads the use of saying frens forever every second/ i love you?
is not the words i want but the kind of care and love.
i just cant feel it from you. like something is missing.
a space i think despite we are laughing our heads off.

i guess u would nvr know the pain in me,
and i knw u all have the pain too. sorry.
but u all everyone arnd. but i am just away.
away from the crowd and away from my life.

nevertheless, i am trying to get along with new ppl
but 2 years of frenship is hard to forget.
new frens, lacking of the telepathy and easiness.
just cant be my true self in frnt of them.

i appreciated the times u all encouraged me to not feel extra
i really tried my best, really.
but now i seem like to be casted aside by u all,
standing in the crowd yet seeing everyone's back.
for now, i really feel that having no common topic
is not an important factor for the difficult communication btwn us.

i knw devilrinas is my support.

please dun let go of the rope, i still need all of youu
if i ever ignored u i am sorry.
if i ever hurt u i am sorry,
i hope i nt that kind of person. &
one impt clarification, the i-ppl are nt proud at all!

ytd went to TPJC to watch seniors perform!!
so well done ! we took a picture too!
will upload it very soon
congrats winnie and siyu senior ! (:
loves them lots :D

we went in late as we had to wait for stella,
while waiting we sang national day songs
den gt one guy like say his fren name
which sounds like "SHUT-UP "
den we were like instantly quiet. LOL
went in, and so pathetic we need to share seats.
den 15 mins intermission

i saw a guy which look exactly like...
den i call sx and yh to see also
OMG LAH. ITS SO THE SAME
same pattern also.
den we cannot stop laughing.
den rmb gt one guy do chinese dance
den hip hop + stripping

strip clothes nvm,
still strip pants lols!
den got one girl sing until my ears drums wan to burst liao.
so high pitch can
awn they say the guitarist very shuai.

went home after that. haha
nt forgetting craps abt someone wearing jazz pants. HAHAHA.


i spend a night thinking why, why, why.
when i woke up in the mrning.
i scroll down the contact list thinking who shld i ask.
from a to z repeatedly.
it was den i realise how difficult to find one person i can ask.
it was den i felt the emptiness in me.
pardon me frm saying this. but i really thot i gave my best.
to save this friendship, dun blame me if we are not frens anymore.
this is wad u all moulded me.
its abt giving in and understand each other, do u expect me to look for
u ppl every single day. we have our own things to do.
perhaps its time to cool down.
meldon ask me that day
"who are you more loyal to? 2e or 3i?"
actually, i am quite sure of the answer. but now,
i have to think twice or perhaps thrice.

well, a rather busy week. finally (:
more tests coming up. haix!
today chi dancers very crazy ar.
go outside cheer -.- lols

hmm nth to update lar.
just to wish a good sales in my album.

and ppl dun EMO !
okay so rest well & eat well

wish my 2.4 run pass ar.
since i always zhong feng one.

ps: dun cling to wad thats not yours, be brave and move on with life. u still have us

thank you stella daddy, u did solve the conflicts in sri lanka HAHA
so everything went extremely well today, did lotsa of things.
defintely a worth to look-out for.
so stay united, we can do it alrights? JIAYOU!

many many many things happen these few weeks
and is unexplainable. and to (someone) do your best in forgetting abt him,
cos its not worth at all. LOL.

NOW 3I is the slowest in sciences lor, chem slowest
bio got a lot to cover. physic not sure. haha
so today have maths test -.- i flunk the test
i receive the paper den look at the first question.
ERR. how to do? lols
den my ist graph draw wrongly. = tks to my itchy hands cos i go join it. haha
den last question, the lines wobble like siao.
den nvr find solution for x. haha den my marks fly away.

next up lotsa test liao.
haiz, circles, moles, thermal stuffs. english essay.
HAIX. why is life full of tests?

DEVILS ROCKS ! JIAYOU <3